I'm Sooooooo PO'ed!!!

Kopp Disclosure
(John 3:19-21)

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One of America's most popular evangelists and best-selling authors used the "S" word while speaking to our elders when I was an undershepherd in a fabulously well-to-do church in Kansas City.

When a rather religiously proper one of 'em scolded Tony, he said after bobbing his head in apparent/staged disbelief, "Our world is plagued by wars, starvation is rampant, people don't know Jesus, and people who say they know Jesus treat each other like ___; and you have the nerve to tell me that you don't like me using ___ to shake you out of your lazy lukewarm Christianity? Is that the extent of your concern? Does my offensive language matter more to you than everything going to hell because you care more about me saying ___ than leading people to Jesus and loving like Jesus?"

Go on!

Parenthetically, I'm coming to realize some not most pulpiteers/pewsitters paralyze/pollute churches by their pettiness over, uh, petty ___ because that diverts their attention from consequential matters beyond their influence/control/whatever. In other words, while the world is on fire, they start little ones to distract their noodles from...

Kinda sick.

But, uh, didn't He say the healthy don't need a...?

Anyway, making no apologies apart from my desire to clean up my language in an Ephesians 4:29 kinda way that's still a WIP, I'm sooooooo PO'ed!

Let me explain.

After 35+ ordained/installed years, I can take the thanatos libido of my ecclesiastical franchise, transferred angers of members/staff/others who need me as an occasional scapegoat - Yes, blame me! - to avoid the mirror's reflection, family members who regularly point out my limitations and failures to meet their expectations, and other ___ symbolizing a greater kinship to the Adamsons than...

I'm used to that ___; and if I weren't, I'd be among the 1400 to 1500 pastors who split from the vocation every 30 days.

Experiential calluses supported by increasing intimacy with Jesus have enabled me to overcome the cultural obstacles to authentic undershepherding a little more than less.

I can still be as full of ___ as anyone; but, not asking you to excuse the grammar 'cause I can't think of a better way to say it, I'm more better than more worse a little more than less.

Be that as it is with a confession that I'm probably still not as more better as my mommy advertises or I hallucinate, I'm sooooooo PO'ed because a woman who's even more of a geezer than moi spent three days in the hospital and no one in her family or church told me about it.

With current laws prohibiting anyone outside of hospital employment to review computer listings of patients and hospitals very, very, very rarely calling reports to us anymore, it's next to impossible to know if someone is hospitalized unless relatives or friends of a patient call and squeal.

So the woman who assumed I could check the computer listings and assumed someone must have told me felt I had ignored/abandoned her; not giving a ___ about the state of her...

And despite telling her over and over and over again that...

Simply, I'm sooooooo PO'ed because she didn't/doesn't think I care about her because biological and spiritual family members didn't care enough about her to provide the privilege to me to care about her concomitant to my call.

Or something like that.

While, again, I am as full of ___ as anyone else sharing my vocation, He has gifted me for bringing the care/compassion of Jesus to folks in such challenging moments; and so I still get sooooooo PO'ed when I don't know...

Surely, cynics will say I'm more concerned about my reputation than love for...

I'm so full of ___ on/about so many things that I can understand their cynicism about me.

I'm such an awful person/pastor/partner/parent that I understand cynicism about my motives as well as enfleshments.

But I just have this OCD call to be with people when they're scarred ___less in the hospital.

Believe it or not, I want to help as enabled by Him.

No ___.

AAAAAAAaaaaaaahhhhhhh, I don't feel better even after venting.

I'm sooooooo PO'ed.

Maybe if we really cared just a little bit more about really caring for others, our world wouldn't be filled with so much ___; and maybe our Lord wouldn't think we're so full of ___ when we say how much we llllllluuuuuuuvvvvvvvsssssss everybody as a by-product of loving Him.

We better check to see if Matthew 25 is in the latest revised too standard version of the...

It's kinda like Tony said.

If you've read this and are more concerned about the ___s than what hasn't been filled in...

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Blessings and Love!